random poem...

Just go ahead and leave me here,
To face this big bad world of all my fears.
Just disappear with out a trace.
And forget the memories that took place.
I want a friendship but I don’t think it can work out.
Because with what we had before that lasting is something I doubt.
Might be better if I just go away and leave you be,
So that you don’t have to deal with me.
So give live your life and be happy.
I’m sorry if I treated you crappy.
I understand if you hate who I am.
But I guess you won’t have to hear from me ever again.

jst a thought today...

this is for you, you know who you are...

this is for my first real love the first person to steal my heart,

to take my breath away, to make me feel like ii matter.

it was you that made me feel like even in the worse of times things would be okay.

this is for the one who delt with me and still loved me

in the best or worse of times.

the one who no matter how upset ii got told me that it'll work out.

the person who never gave up on me no matter how easy it would be for them.

this is about the one person who made me laugh

when ii cried and who when ii was happy

still managed to make me happier.

this is for the person ii let down,

the one ii hurt, who cried over me.

the one who gave me everything,

and ii still hurt them. for the one who cant hate me

even if others can.

the one who worries about my happiness

before theirs.

the one person ii hurt and can never say sorry enough too...

the one who now doubts everything ii say to them,

if its about my feelings...

this is about the one who ii let go and pushed away

in hopes it will make both of our lives easier...

the person who seemed to not even wanna touhc me today...

for whatever reason...

the one who now prolly cant stand the sight of me

because it hurts them...

this is for the one who's always gonna have a place in my heart

as much as they doubt it.

the one who ii will never be able to make up

for what ii did to them

the one who ii must im sorry....

and will always be sorry....

this is for the one....you kno who you are....

my blog name...music video and lyrics...

The lyrics.....

paralyzed by the beauty of those words
that so delicately drip from this angel of untamed lust
suddenly I fear the end of my solitude
once a warrior, poetic shrieks now own my soul

left behind to fight the ruthless pawns of Eris
hope will strike her down beneath the blade as she sings for him

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

beautiful whispers leave one so far
chain these hands of ageless struggle
rid us of this beloved curse
an epic tale of deceit is given life once more on silver lips so spiteful
her tongue screams for him
rid us of this curse

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

set loose so long ago by the foolish whim of Pandora
phantoms which shall forever prey on mankind's weakness
the grains of time hold no bearing to those eyes
in pale moonlight she sings to the haunted sea
vile notes seduce old Cerberus to slake unholy thirst

left behind to fight the ruthless pawns of Eris
hope will strike her down beneath the blade as she sings for him

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

stupid people

have you ever studied the way people take certain situations.
like take for instance...a cellfone being stolen....sure you'll be mad...
sure it really sucks....but that doesnt mean you have to start crying like someone fukin died.
especially when its all your damn fault the fone got stolen....how can you leave ur fone in a school full of ppl that steal...THE DAMN SCHOOL HAS A HISTORY OF SHIT BEING STOLEN...and yet you leave it there. they kids have stolen from students and TEACHERS!!! some of the things stolen.....
-ipod touch
-mr. o'connor's laptop
-mr. bogolub's ipod....
-sidekicks
-phones
-money
-wallets
-metrocards
now with a history like that...what person in their right mind would leave their fone alone...and then jst to cause a scene in the hallway...about how you wanna go home...GET THE FUCK OVER IT...ITS JST A FONE...it jst aggrivates me...sure its a fone...but its jst a fone....unless they had to hide shit...it really shows how materialistic everyone has become. ii find it so sad. but there is nothin u can do abt it....you know??
but what can you do...i'm jst gonna sit back and watch people fall apart at their materilistic things. like a fone...it's pretty sad...but this is life here.....*shakes head* damn shame....and to think it all started cuz someone did sumthing stupid with their...fone...makes me wanna shake them and slap them around a bit....sure ii may be harsh...but they can get the hell over it....in the end you can get another fone...its not everything...

WARNING!!!

My name is Ariella.....

i'm not gonna sugarcoat anything.

i'm gonna write things the way ii see it.

this isn't gonna be my diary, where i'm gonne "complain about the world"

it's gonna have my poems, my writing, my thoughts

about the life ii have,

the things ii see...

and the shit ii put up with...

i'm not doing this to make people happy...

if you disagree with it,

thats ur opinion,

you stick to yours...

and i'll stick to mine.

this doesn't have a set genre...

and isn't gonna follow guide lines...

if ii like it, i'll post it...

i'm not being mean..

ii jst keep it real...

and if you cnt handle that....

sorry.