random moment...into my life....

01. If you made $50 for every survey you took, how much would you be making?
not sure....prolly a lot

02. Do you have a favorite sports team?
lol umm jst the mets

03. How much did you spend on the shirt you're wearing?
dunno....bought it awhile ago

04. Do you live in an apartment building or a house?
a house

05. What was the last thing you had to eat and drink?
water and chicken and stuffies

06. What is something you'd really love to do right now?
how about your mom...or jst not be home

07. When and why did you last cry?
dnt remember its been awhile...thank god

08. Is there a person who used to make you happy that you now dislike?
ofcourse ii got along list of those ppl

09. What band do you hate the most, why?
umm ii hate the killers cuz the suck giant froggy balls

10. What is one thing you would never eat even if paid?
....a person but ur moms dnt count.....BURN

11. Do you have an addiction to anything?
music

12. Have you decided what career you would like to pursue?
ii want to be a music teacher

13. What color is your dining room table, if you have one?
umm brown

14. What brand of bubble gum do you like best?
stride..XD

15. What color is your keyboard, and mouse?
umm its my laptop my keyboard is black and my mouse pad is gray

16. When was the last time you watched School of Rock?
umm the last time it was on cartoon network over the summer ii thinky

17. Are you excited for Sims 3 to come out?
not really ii could careless

18. Are you upset for any reason right now? If so, why?
yeah ii am...and ii made a mistake that might hurt sum1 ii really care abt...

19. What was the last movie you watched? Who did you watch it with?
who framed roger rabbit and ii watched it with my mom and sister

20. Do you miss anyone right now? Who, why?
jess....even though it might be bad..and b/c she makes me so damn happy

21. How many pairs of shoes do you own?
dunno..

22. Any plans for tomorrow?
birthday party

23. What is your favorite fruit?
idk

24. When is the last time you spoke to your parents?
jst now

25. Are you going to move within the next year?
only into a college dorm

26. What color is your favorite hoodie?
BLACK!!

27. Do you name inanimate objects?
lol yeah...

28. Have you ever written a love letter to someone?
umm no...

29. When was the last time you felt embarrassed? What happened?
hmmm idk ii do a lot of stupid shit

30. What song are you currently listening to?
nfl theme song...lol

You've had sex within the past 2 weeks, haven't you?
yeah....your mom keeps me happy every night

Is there someone you really can't stop thinking about?
ofcourse

What color are your eyes?
ugh,brown.

How do you think your latest ex feels about you?
she loves me

Do you like what you see in the mirror?
hell no

What are you listening to right now?
nfl music

What are your plans for this weekend?
party and family

What makes you laugh?
a gay guy fight

How's your room looking?
messeh as hell...lol

What are you doing tomorrow?
ur moms....HA HA BURN!!...and a party

What are you wearing right now?
tank and shorts

What were you most looking forward to today?
nada cz ur moms is busy...=]

How is your hair?
messy as hell...

As of today, do you like anyone?
not like...love

Have you kissed anyone on the lips within the past 7 hours?
yeah

Have you ever been awake for 48 hours straight?
nope

Do you stay friends with your exs?
sumtimes

Do you like your first name?
hell no

Do you like to cuddle?
only with ppl that ii wanna cuddle with. if not then hell no

What are your initals?
arvc

Baseball or football?
baseball.

Married?
yeah to about 13 ppl around there could be more...or less but ii do think more

What are your biggest fears?
clowns and spiders

Last person you hugged?
mi sister

Who's the sexiest person alive?
alex gaskarth, juliet sims, megan fox

Do you like the color gray?
hell yeah

Look outside hows the weather?
hot

Are you jealous of anyone right now?
nah dnt have a reason to be

Did you ever think someone didn't like you, but come to find out they really did?
lol yeah that was funny

When was the last time you were told you were cute?
today

What was the last drink you had?
water...yay

Who was your last phone call from?
my mom

What is bothering you right now?
a lot

What are you doing tonight?
ur moms...BURN...nah ii dnt kno

Whens the next time you will see the person who absolutely takes your breath away?
monday...=]

Where is your boyfriend/girlfriend?
dnt have one

Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
yeah man

If you could have one person with you right now, who would it be?

jess

Do you look at the keyboard when you type?
not unless ii cnt find a button ii dnt normally use

What are you most looking forward to tomorrow?
nothing

Last night, did you go to sleep smiling?
nah...

What's the reason behind your myspace display name?
its a kick ass name

Was last New Years enjoyable?
hmm yeah it was funny

Will you talk to the person you like tonight?
ofcourse

Tomorrow is?
saturday

If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose?
the break when spring turns into fall...

Do you hate being alone?
sumtimes not always

Are you tanned?
yeah ii am..

Do you hate the last guy/ girl you had a thing with?
nah ii dnt

How did you and your number 1 become friends?
weve been friends since kindergarten

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
not sure

Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn't do?
yeah man...those r called regrets at times

Who are you thinking about right NOW?
my ex bf...smh

Have you ever been stalked?
yeah...not cool

Do you think you will be married by the time you are 35?
eye dee kay

Do you watch TV or listen to music more?
music

What month is your birthday in?
october

Who sits next to you in chemistry?
dnt got science

get a tattoo?
ii would love too

Did you sleep at least seven hours last night?
yeah

What color eyes do you prefer the opposite gender to have?
ii dnt care but ii am a sucker for green eyes

Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
sunny

What kind of car do you drive?
ii no have one

Next time you travel out of the country where will it be to?
idk

What color are your eyes?
ugh brown

Where did you get the shirt you' re wearing now?

new york and company

Where were you 1 hour ago?
dreamland being chased my zombie...it was kick ass

Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than as a friend?
god..ii cnt even count how many...

How many pairs of jeans do you own?
a couple

how abt a bunch of corny quotes....

some of the best quotes from twilight....=]

feelings lazy....

so now in the mood to deal with this....
deal with anything....
im sick of ppl....
im sick of dating...
im sick of love...
its all jst pure bullshit...
cuz sure makes u feel good...
but unless u can make sum1 else happy...
IT GETS YOU NO WHERE...
b/c in the end sum1 always isnt happy abt the choice you made...
im jst counting down the days till college....
jst so ii can get the fuck away
from andres...and his prince eric pony tail...
and jess and her guilt trips...
ii told her ii wasnt ready but its not good enough for her...
unless we're together
she cnt be really happy....
ii jst dnt get....
ii jst cnt deal with it...
its pissin me off...
im sooo almost fukin done with this life...
so fuck it....
im jst done....
im keepin to myself...
and fuck the rest....
thats how ii see it...

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Now playing: Underoath - In Regards To MySelf
via FoxyTunes

bothered by thoughts.....

so ii was doing dishes and sumthing hit me....how would it feel to have to look into the eyes of the person you let down...does it eat you on the inside to know that the one person you really cared abt and really cared about you is hurting and crying all because you let them down, and it did nothing but almost break them as a person. ii mean does it push you to stop talking to them and breakin every promise you made to them about always being around. ii mean how does it feel that to know that it hurts that person to this day that they still care about you...and everyday they regret what happen between you guys if they knew it would have gotten to this bad. ii mean ii wonder how it feels when you see this person cry and you just don't know if its cuz of you because you stopped talking to them for no reason. and then when you see that person happy does it bother you to kno that its not cuz of you, that the blush on their face or the cheese grin isnt because of you anymore...and act like a douche to everyone that deals with this person. ii mean do you even still care abt them...but ii mean ii guess you don't. but not like it matters b/c in the end you just lost the best thing thats ever happen to you...im tellin you now.....no one will ever care about you like the way ii did.
ii gave you my everything and ended up with nothing but tears and endless drama...what can ii do but just fuckin give up on you, just to stop loving you and showing you any interest b/c it gets me FUCKING NO WHERE.....ii finally realized what happens when it comes to caring about you....ii used to think ii wasnt good enough for you...but then ii realized you weren't good enough for me...and never will be. ii deserve to be happy and no matter what that won't ever be with you b/c you just cnt care about anyone but your fukin self. ii always thought you changed but ii was fukin wrong...all you ever will be is a fukin player...so just go one and fukin ignore me...avoid me like the fukin plague....act like the fukin 7 months we had together nvr fukin mattered to you, like it was nothing but a harsh mistake....a bunch of memories you just dont want. but fine go on and do it....
but don't you dare fukin come to me and try to get me back....b/c in the end all hope is gone, ii have nothing but dead memories and ii want nothing that deals with you and me. im not gonna forget abt what we had but ii will forget my feelings for you....and jst keep the memories of us as a learnin experience of what not to do...and the type of person to not fall for...so fuck you and have a nice fucking day ii am done with you. and will not go back to you ever....not cuz ii cnt...but because ii dnt want too ever again...ii will be happy.....and that sure as hell means it wont be with you....

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Now playing: Slipknot - Dead Memories
via FoxyTunes

a poem....

so ii wont tell the truth....

i'll jst tell all sorts of lies...

ii won't let you know...

ii cnt look into ur eyes....

ii wont say a word...

abt what you do to me...

but ii will make sure...

my tears u'll never see...

ii told ii loved you...

unconditionally

which mean ii still have feelings

for you basically...

so go on and forget...

everything that was us...

hide the feelings u had for me with

great success...

ii told u ii would be ur invisable

cheerleader to the end...

who would've known...

that you couldnt even be my friend...

so ii love you..and ii guess...

it will always be this way....

and the thing is...

ii think of you everyday....

TWLOHA...XD

random poem...

Just go ahead and leave me here,
To face this big bad world of all my fears.
Just disappear with out a trace.
And forget the memories that took place.
I want a friendship but I don’t think it can work out.
Because with what we had before that lasting is something I doubt.
Might be better if I just go away and leave you be,
So that you don’t have to deal with me.
So give live your life and be happy.
I’m sorry if I treated you crappy.
I understand if you hate who I am.
But I guess you won’t have to hear from me ever again.

jst a thought today...

this is for you, you know who you are...

this is for my first real love the first person to steal my heart,

to take my breath away, to make me feel like ii matter.

it was you that made me feel like even in the worse of times things would be okay.

this is for the one who delt with me and still loved me

in the best or worse of times.

the one who no matter how upset ii got told me that it'll work out.

the person who never gave up on me no matter how easy it would be for them.

this is about the one person who made me laugh

when ii cried and who when ii was happy

still managed to make me happier.

this is for the person ii let down,

the one ii hurt, who cried over me.

the one who gave me everything,

and ii still hurt them. for the one who cant hate me

even if others can.

the one who worries about my happiness

before theirs.

the one person ii hurt and can never say sorry enough too...

the one who now doubts everything ii say to them,

if its about my feelings...

this is about the one who ii let go and pushed away

in hopes it will make both of our lives easier...

the person who seemed to not even wanna touhc me today...

for whatever reason...

the one who now prolly cant stand the sight of me

because it hurts them...

this is for the one who's always gonna have a place in my heart

as much as they doubt it.

the one who ii will never be able to make up

for what ii did to them

the one who ii must im sorry....

and will always be sorry....

this is for the one....you kno who you are....

my blog name...music video and lyrics...

The lyrics.....

paralyzed by the beauty of those words
that so delicately drip from this angel of untamed lust
suddenly I fear the end of my solitude
once a warrior, poetic shrieks now own my soul

left behind to fight the ruthless pawns of Eris
hope will strike her down beneath the blade as she sings for him

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

beautiful whispers leave one so far
chain these hands of ageless struggle
rid us of this beloved curse
an epic tale of deceit is given life once more on silver lips so spiteful
her tongue screams for him
rid us of this curse

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

set loose so long ago by the foolish whim of Pandora
phantoms which shall forever prey on mankind's weakness
the grains of time hold no bearing to those eyes
in pale moonlight she sings to the haunted sea
vile notes seduce old Cerberus to slake unholy thirst

left behind to fight the ruthless pawns of Eris
hope will strike her down beneath the blade as she sings for him

suffering unseen now will be left to burn in her stare
but he no longer fights the torture of her voice
so long forgotten, I am lost in her stare
mad so clear as she extracts her painful toll
a soul now echoes with the torture of the sirens
...he is hers...

stupid people

have you ever studied the way people take certain situations.
like take for instance...a cellfone being stolen....sure you'll be mad...
sure it really sucks....but that doesnt mean you have to start crying like someone fukin died.
especially when its all your damn fault the fone got stolen....how can you leave ur fone in a school full of ppl that steal...THE DAMN SCHOOL HAS A HISTORY OF SHIT BEING STOLEN...and yet you leave it there. they kids have stolen from students and TEACHERS!!! some of the things stolen.....
-ipod touch
-mr. o'connor's laptop
-mr. bogolub's ipod....
-sidekicks
-phones
-money
-wallets
-metrocards
now with a history like that...what person in their right mind would leave their fone alone...and then jst to cause a scene in the hallway...about how you wanna go home...GET THE FUCK OVER IT...ITS JST A FONE...it jst aggrivates me...sure its a fone...but its jst a fone....unless they had to hide shit...it really shows how materialistic everyone has become. ii find it so sad. but there is nothin u can do abt it....you know??
but what can you do...i'm jst gonna sit back and watch people fall apart at their materilistic things. like a fone...it's pretty sad...but this is life here.....*shakes head* damn shame....and to think it all started cuz someone did sumthing stupid with their...fone...makes me wanna shake them and slap them around a bit....sure ii may be harsh...but they can get the hell over it....in the end you can get another fone...its not everything...

WARNING!!!

My name is Ariella.....

i'm not gonna sugarcoat anything.

i'm gonna write things the way ii see it.

this isn't gonna be my diary, where i'm gonne "complain about the world"

it's gonna have my poems, my writing, my thoughts

about the life ii have,

the things ii see...

and the shit ii put up with...

i'm not doing this to make people happy...

if you disagree with it,

thats ur opinion,

you stick to yours...

and i'll stick to mine.

this doesn't have a set genre...

and isn't gonna follow guide lines...

if ii like it, i'll post it...

i'm not being mean..

ii jst keep it real...

and if you cnt handle that....

sorry.